Robot

I am sooooooo sorry for the lack of post. For the past 2 months I've been to every corner of Al Ain City taking pictures and trying photography as a new habit. Most of all, my son made me so busy with his homeworks. Both of us are trying to learn Arabic. UUUffff...it is really difficult to learn Arabic language.

As I've said, I've been to the palace and I didn't really liked it but what can I do? Shu sawi yani? Walaa lazim! For a consolation, I had a break for a month because I had my vacation. After that much awaited vacation, I came back to my nursing routines again, so lucky that I have to stay at my unit this whole month.

Last night, I saw the new tentative duty roster for the month of November. I hate it! I have a two-week palace duty again. I feel so sad. I will experience the kind of slavery that I felt during the month of August. I realized that I will never be glad to go to the palace. I mean.. I tried to see the brighter side...but still I end up disgusted and frustrated.

With this kind of situation, I lost my eagerness to be proactive with my extra job. As a BLS instructor, I am not participating anymore in the teaching sessions, as a member of Pediatric Quality Improvement Committee, I am not attending any meeting and as a QI Link Nurse, I stopped with the data collection for my proposed QI Project. I really lost my enthusiasm to do my extra work. I feel that I am not happy anymore. I like to leave this place but I have other things to consider.

I want to vent this feeling to my nurse manager but I know she will not even consider to pull me out of the palace. Nothing will change. I know my life will change only on the day that I will leave this place. But for now, I have to be a ROBOT NURSE. Sorry dear patients.